Today, I shall accept any prayers that come my way. I am going to WV, to help a friend out. I dread that trip, it's a total nightmare to me. 7 hours of speeding and narrow lanes. I am just so praying that God keeps me steady. Oh well time will tell. I guess I shall catch up with you all tomorrow.

Well, its a new day, just a few hours away from yesterday. The nerves are still kinda in a downspin, but I can hang on.
I almost, or may have lost my job due to having a sick housekeeper. And one day, I may actually look for, find him, and go from there.
In 1995, that perverted housekeeper accused me of attacking him with a weapon. Truth? He came at me with a knife, and my best move was to defend myself; so, I took the knife away from him and then locked him in the basement so that I could figure out what to do next. Well, he called the police, they came on site and guess who they took away? That day still haunts my life to this day, leaving a remnant of anger, hate, and a desire for extreme vengeance. I wish him dead, and I would like to be the agent of his demise. There! I have said it.
Now, so that I can move on and get out from under the shadow of that dreadful situation, I am looking to see what I have done wrong since then. NO, I do not have any grand desire to forgive that bastard. Yes, I would like to find him and hurt him. Yes, I am still extremely angry when I think about those lost 12 hours of my life. And do know this, I am not asking God to help me forgive him. I do not have that desire and I have no desire to be a 'heroic' christian.
Where am I now? Well, I don't know right now. I guess I need to deal with Jesus so that I can move into some other better sort of space emotionally and spiritually. This is all in the hands of God. If it were in mine, I don't think the outcome would be one of blessing. And I am not in a place where I can ask God to help me move on.

Hello,

Well, today has most definitely been one of the worst days of my life. I may have lost my teaching job.

Prayer at work. Not!

Today has been a long one already. I woke up a bit early, laid around, had a cup of coffee along with some eggs and meat. Have been channel surfing to no avail. Oh well. Today, there isn't much on my plate except to keep trying to get word out there about my website and the magnetic underwear.
As I have looked over my day thus far, I came to a realization. You know what that realization is? For me, it's that sense of uncertainty, uncertain about where I stand with God. Prayer helps but at times I find it difficult to pray. And I know why. It's not so much a faith thing, rather more a trust thing. I think, erroneously, that if I pray there is a good chance that God won't hear my prayer or He will be slow to respond. Or not respond. I have looked at this and I realize that my relationship withGod is based on template that is at work in my relationships with other people. At times, I feel unseen, unheard; when I am with people, I think that they can't hear my fear, or they don't want to hear me. Unfortunately, I treat God with that same sense of disconnection.
I need to stop here, but I promise to be back very soon. Thanks for reading this, guys.
KD

Third day of hair shirts

Well, this is my third day of being in the blog world officially. And I am liking it. Today, I met some new friends, friends in the Lord and in spirit. They were beautiful people. There was Luke and his beautiful wife Hazel, and their friend Troy. We shared, communed, studied, and just enjoyed being together. I do have such hopes that we can become closer in the Lord and with one another. I thank God for bringing them into my life.
Also, my hair shirts are not selling right now but in time I pray that they take off. I will find any means necessary to get the word out there. I like being a businessman, and I like the energy that this brings out in me. I am becoming my best self. Thanks be to God.
Over and out.
KD

Guys, this is the end of the first day of my hair shirt blog. Upon reflecting over the day, I have come to some peaceful conclusions.
Firstly, I am glad that I developed my own business and am constantly working on expanding the business.
Secondly, I am so glad that this is more than a business for me. There is a rich spirituality involved, also. And in this blog site I want to meet those individuals who are able to share, reflect, just be their best self, enrich the rest of us. A good moral attitude naturally embraces the 'right things of God' while rebuking the 'wrong, the things of the devil.'
Thirdly, the donning of the hair shirt is not a matter to be taken lightly. There is a rich and profound culture, custom, and theology to embracing the hair shirt.
What this all means to me is that I, we, should always remember that intentional penance should not be a narcissistic issue, rather, it is one that you ask the community to help you and support you with. While I cannot read people's hearts and intentions, their actions and words speak more profoundly than anything else.
I leave off here, but I close with this phrase: "Viva la hair shirt":-)), and Oremus pro invicem.
Fraternally,

King David

Hair shirt penance

This is first time that I have ever blogged. Why start now? Well, why not? I think I can come to enjoy this. I have started a line of hair shirts, hair shirts that serve to enable an individual to do penance as they so please. Also, just to put it out there, there is a spirituality to the wearing of the hair shirt. So, I guess I will document feelings, ideas, deeds, and listen to whatever others reading this blog want to say, and your comments cab be whatever you would like to contribute, even beyond the hair shirt theme. Here's my hair shirt link: www.buyhairshirts.com

King David here.